I've been MIA. Actually, I've been freakishly busy, frustrated and confused.
The last few months have been a learning experience. I've had so much fun, spent time with the ones I love and even celebrated the big 2-4.
At the same time, I've been dealing with some hard changes, and unexpected disappointments.
Nothing health related, don't worry, but just the kind of stuff that takes a real toll on you and your confidence. Ya know?
Luckily, my family, friends and boyfriend are the most supportive and encouraging group of people...EVER.
I can't tell you how many times in the last two months I've broken down into tears. The kind of tears that take the air right out of your lungs.
I've cried over little things, like my Mom saying she misses me. I've cried out of pure frustration. I've cried just to cry.
Thank god for the sweet man in my life. I know my stress causes him stress (I've been abnormally snappy and emotional lately, obviously).
Yet, he remains calm, all the time. He sits and listens to me while I cry, he pushes me to be positive and keep working my ass off.
Seriously, if it were not for him, I'd probably be packing my bags and heading back to California.
And believe me, I do NOT give up easily, so that's saying a lot.
Anyway, the whole point of this, is I haven't been myself lately.
On top of it all, my lease is up in a few weeks and I'm moving. If you live in NYC, you know how hellish apartment hunting in this city can be.
Although this process brings more stress and more disappointment, I've actually found it to be exciting.
The idea of having a new place, for myself, for us, makes me happy.
Shopping for decor and furniture for this new space, makes me really happy.
So that's what I've been doing. Distracting myself (successfully, might I add) by shopping for my new apartment (which I haven't yet found).
I came across this wonderful, amazing, golden deer head a few days ago and literally squealed! It's SO perfect!
The boyfriend disagrees. He told me I'm nuts for wanting to put a golden animal head above the bed, but in his usual manor,
he said, whatever makes you happy babe. And yes, this golden deer head makes me happy. Ordered.
A few other things I'm looking forward to picking up for the new place...once I sign a lease:
Pier One Hayworth Dresser - Silver / Storage Ottoman - White / Gelato Tray - Mango / You Me Oui French Themed Typography Poster by wordsdesignlove
I'm confident (or trying to be) that things will work out and I'll be back to my normal
weird self soon.
Until then, home decor browsing and working out and repeating to myself "all things happen for a reason."